The Lumineers - Slow it Down
I’m taking a three credit yoga seminar this semester - and how I managed to find it among all the one credit behavior and wellness classes is beyond me. The first class, she had us lay our yoga mats in a circle on the floor and introduce ourselves; our names followed by an adjective that describes how you feel most of the time. The first thing I thought to say was that I was content. Content is a good, easy thing to tell a whole class filled with people. The first girl in the circle said optimistic, and the second said content. The third said anxious. And I think the third, anxious girl gave me the courage to be honest. So when they came to me, the 8th person around the circle, I said gloomy. My name’s Dana and I feel, pause, gloomy. Like it was just as a part of me as what usually comes after your name in classroom introductions - like gloomy was just as much me as my major and where I’m from. Hi, I’m Dana - I’m an Art History major with a concentration in Architecture and Neuroscience minor from Baldwin, NY. All of that was replaced by gloomy. A word I settled on after my therapist gave me a worksheet on emotion regulation that listed all these little words that are inside big umbrella feelings. And it helps. Just like how she helps. And how yoga helps. I was putting the my blocks away and my professor smiled at me and said as a statement, not a question “you needed that, didn’t you.” And I choked down tears, like how I coughed up gloomy, and managed to smile. I’m still sore.